I see what you are doing, poaching my ♥ away.

Shit♥

Thursday

Shit. i finished a jar of salsa chunky dip with potato chipssss

Princess & its weekend♥

Tuesday

overjoyed. really.

it was a fantastic and tasteful weekend

i met up with my sec sch teacher with a used to be close friend of mine

and one of my beloved senior whom i was close to b4

for lunch cum high tea since we reached at 2

and there's actually so much i can know in a day

at night i had a bbq with my all girls sec sch clique

we had all sorts of food and fondue

the thing we had most

i suppose was gossip and smoke

i really hated the smoke, so i wasnt very in the mood

each moment i was thinking of how smelly my shirt is

=) but it was delicious!

and saturday night was another repeat of the missing forth mahjong player

AS USUAL. =D

Sunday! not a sunny one.

lunch at swensens with jake

basically did a lot of updating,rant rant on

and we went around to find that dress i have been thinking abt for 2 weeks

and guess what

i finally found it

i named it princess

it's to me. royalty (it s the sleeves)

and i bought it and wore it with lovely sponsored bangles

also from sunday to my last event of the weekend

a bollywood dinner in lil india

which did freak me out quite a lot

i was outnumbered like 1:500

but the lovely resturant was nice on the second floor

with aircon on the floor

i really do love the naan and mutton masala

sweet shanshan got us door gifts. of coz i was excited

it had henna tattoo and lil glitters for our faces

i had my fringe long, so there wasnt any point in putting it on my forehead

so i put a bling near my eyes

=) glam glam!

we had chocolate fondue and they tried my cupcakes

we eventually ran out of banana,strawberry and marshies to dip it with

leonie came up with the brillant idea of dipping my mini cupcakes

delicious!

sweet junjun bought mini cakes for the birthday ladies, leenie and shanshan

i am so glad sha came along too

as we left

sha's entire family came to fetch her

wow.

i think it's amazing to see a good family bonding.

i headed home with the rest via train

yes. when is the last time i took a train?

maybe a week or two ago?

rofl!

i checked my timetable for this weekend and next.

looks like a lot is happening too.

i am freaking excited!

Ps: longest,most detailed entry since 32145245356573.

A song with all the words I want to say♥

I was so happy when you smiled
Your smile breaks through the clouds of grey
Far from the sunny days that lie in sleep.
Eating with patience for the Spring
When the flowers will bloom renewed again
Knowing there's more beyond the pain of today.
Although the scars of yesterday remain
You can go on living as much as your heart believes.
You can't be born again
Although you can change
Lets stay together always.
ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba.
ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba.
ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba.

Snapping♥

Wednesday

I just snapped

I am angry

so angry i typed twice and erased everything possible

I have so much to say

and no one to tell it to

No one because

1) the people who said they will be there for me no matter what are fucking gone with empty promises

2) i am so called not understanding enough- there u go, empty promises

3) i broke too many hearts of those i can talk to so i can no longer talk to them- i call it drift and broken

4) i don't tell much to a lot of people and i only talk to a few, very few people and they are all fucking, i dun know where

so you see

i can only talk to myself

about things tt matter the most to me

and will never matter even a bit to anyone

Owl♥

Tuesday

Listen to me once again

I say

One, Two, Three, Four, Five..

Six, Seven, Eight, Nine.

One, Two, Three, Goodbye.

It doesnt change even if we tried

till the next time we meet

Fondly♥

Monday

the best 6 letters in the month of august

written down.

Goal♥

Saturday

I have a goal in life

are you happy for me or not

I am going to do it

are you happy for me or not

Le Cordon Bleu♥

Monday

I decided to live a life of pastry

Something i can always create

Something that i will always love

Le Cordon Bleu

You are my only path.

Cant Forget♥

I cant forget about it

I guess i will never be able to find something as gorgeous as it is

it's a big matter

no one feels me the way i do

Evaporate♥

Saturday

I cannot talk to you anymore

You choose to hear only the good things i have to say

even before i can finish the bad

you always threw my words away

they evaporate

ears♥

who will be listening to what i have to say

i am telling you

is your heart listening?

cause your listening has no replies

do u think i am just saying it

becoz i am for real

but u listen and let it out the other side

Pain♥

there's scratches on my new only suitcase and

no one can understand how important it is to me

big fucking scratches

where am i going to find my fucking perfect suitcase again?

damnit!

Meaning♥

Friday

what is the exact meaning of a sleepover?

literately going to a person's house to sleep?

sleepovers are suppose to be fun

starting at early night

ending at late night

sleeping till late morning

that's a sleepover

not SLEEP and get OVER and done with!

Not my style♥

Wednesday

i should remember not to ever order cakes in advance

damnit

Princess♥

Tuesday

I named it even before i got it

that one last piece

now i should name it

"forgotten"

Obey.♥

i finally got to one thing i wanted to do

and there's plenty on my desk to try to get

things working

life working

so, this is it.

a brand new skin for my blog of nothingness

and probably, hopefully, a new way of expressing myself

i will try to talk more

in ways that human beings can understand

den again

"am i trying too hard for others to understand me?"

who knows

-

weekend was not very fantastic but good enough to

supper with a real old buddy of mine, not in age of coz

prata could not be better without people u can trust

den the sunday proceed with me and my ever close budbud,lou

as we took train rides,a bus and even cycled

i am pretty amazed at the advice i was given when i went to the temple

for some harmless advice

i asked how was life and friends getting abt to me now

and the answer was simple

i should accept there is hardship at times

and that was the answer i needed to stop thinking

and worrying about the matters

we went to arab street and further down and found an amazing toy store

i always seen it being closed and spent some quality time

looking at old toys, thinking of old times

the great thing about being with my dear budbud

is when we never get tired about laughing abt things from the past

when i look at him

i see just more den being here, as friends

i see what was behind, how we saw each other went through hard times

cycling, god, cycling

cycling, i need to brush up on it. seriously!

and for the most loved one, i hope u're studying real hard

i will jump too.