I see what you are doing, poaching my ♥ away.

cause if you jump,

this night is all we've got

♥

Friday

i dread every single weekend i have to go through

seriously, life doesnt have to be a cycle right?

♥

thanks ah Jr.

tonight i have no bed sheets to sleep in

whatever happened to friendship?

am i such a bitch when i am attached?

then why do u have to be such a bitch now?

ask yrself den, seriously, ask yrself

right right i know that i am not number one

fuck off really, life doesnt just revolve around you

i dun wan to care anymore

i will not care about people who dun give a damn anymore

tt includes you

perish all you want

just dun come crying on the phone

oh right, you wouldnt

you constantly have new people to cry to

♥

Tuesday

i got my wallet today

*evil laughs*

echo echo echo echo...

♥

Monday

when did you stop taking pictures WITH me?

have you realised it yet?

no,you havent.

today i talked so much.yucks.

♥

he finally played with his bell toy =)

everything is going well

i really loved that day

do you?

♥

Saturday

he tried the whole night to do escape routines

biting and pushing the gate

to the extent, he ran out to the living room once

i woke up to the sound of the ring tt binds the gate once

and my mom found him outside the cage

with a hole that he squeeeezzzzzeee through from the gate

seriously, Jr., if you're royalty

remember, I Am King.

♥

Jr.

you can stop trying to bite the cage

cause i am not letting you out

u need to understand i have nights out too

so, live with it

bite all u want, i am still not letting you out

-

i really do feel like a loser

it's just a membership and every other person has it except me?

it's the first time i have to feel like a total loser, really

what am i to you now?

a gf you are not proud nor eager to introduce your friends too

reason for feeling like a loser, number two

new label huh?

"loser girlfriend"

♥

Thursday

i swear he licked me

i am so sure

♥

it is done

finally after 4 hours

i wonder if i prepared enough!

♥

welcome to my midnight baking heaven

:)

♥

Wednesday

i am hungry

i should have said it

never mind

♥

the way we can tell who is who

i can tell if you are or you arent

isnt this world just so different and lonely?

everything in life is a choice

this is my choice

do you know yours?

♥

Tuesday

you should really blog more

dun tell me you dun have time

i know u do use the computer

and how come you can blog nice things about people you crush on in the past

and i see nothing from me

♥

Sunday

well today wasnt so bad after all

i did major clean up

well of coz. exterior mostly

i cant take it anymore

my cupboards all so bulky and cannot hold much stuff

what kind of fuck design did i put up with all these years

♥

Saturday

just what exactly do i want to hear?

i dunwan to hear things that would not happen

i am listening

but instead just in the middle of the supposedly promise you made to me

i refused

i think why i refused

because of the kind of expectation that i hold

this isnt just the kind of life

i get it

your life is on a roll

i'm not stopping you but the least

can you just stop dropping last minute bombs on me?

♥

Friday

who do you turn to the most nowadays?

is it the never talking pet

or the never alive laptop?

who do i turn to nowadays?

♥

now i know

it just didnt matter how you love me

and however you manage to

as long as it's under the same sky

the same passing clouds

the same dawn and dusk

can you see

there's so much in common before we even could talk

♥

i really have no idea if my bunny just licked me for the first time

or tried to test my finger

-_-"

♥

Thursday

i need to say this

i am sorry Jr.

mommy is sick and cant let you out and have your fun

be good...

♥

seriously, fever and rejecting food isnt the best thing to do

i know what a day right

i went out and get ready for baking maniac and

look what happens

fever

seriously man

damn bull shit

but of coz the only thing before my fever was

the fact that i got a platinum card as an upgrade of cancellation of my tx account

wow wow wow really, wow

i really feel the NOW spirit from my new damn red NOW card

because i am so NOW having a fever

hurrayyy......(died down)

♥

Tuesday

Jr. is in high spirits today

we shared a few moments of unexpected fun

well a few funny things he does again

he ran much more den he usually will

i guess it explains as he is rather happy

and not exactly afraid of me

i figure tt out when he approached my hand while i rub his nose

and the first few times he ever jumped on my bed and hang out for a little while

i think he is starting to understand me while i understand him

he is probably thinking

what the hell do i do with a black piece of rect thing everyday

oh well, sometimes i ask myself that too

=)

oh yes

flag day is sooooo coming up

i am hyped up!

i know, i love it, oh yes, i do

i miss all the dirty work, really, i do

meeting the girls on thursday

omg, i hope i am not fatter than the last time they saw me

♥

Sunday

there isnt suppose to be a benchmark

nor a shadow that you should be looking at

i shouldnt be reminding you of someone else

i dunwan to fit in

i never did

♥

Saturday

promises are pieces of bullshit that is used

half the time to put a smile on your face

sweeten your heart

and eventually achy breaky them

including your heart in it

it's just like a full package

a strong promise kept from the start

then come the few occasions you gave in

then followed by silence to see if the promise is kept

then this

pure disbelief at the once strong promise

promises really are bullshits to me now

it's proven for years

that i have to live without them

of course promises are sweet

sweet things turn bad one day too

does everything has an expiry date?

i have yet to find out...

♥

Thursday

i am sitting at macdonalds with dying batteries

yes

dying lappie

dying phone

and dying time ticking ticking away

this is the hated situation when you cant do anything

and have many neighbours on your right

keep changing all sorts of people

and a group of 30s-40s year olds on my left the whole time

the thing is

in the past i would say this guy has too much to say

now

i think it is amazing for a people that old to have so much to say

irrating stupid business things

please find somewhere else and left macdonalds alonnnnneeee

i really do feel like dying

it's still ticking

♥

a private moment with the puny one at 4am in the morning

his chins resting on my arms

for a remarkablely long time

i think he observes me more than i observe him

hmm....

i cannot seem to put myself to sleep

not that i didnt work and have too much energy

i just dun seem to be contented

i think it's just habits changing around me

and a freaking bed i need to change

♥

Wednesday

i am basically left with too much time for the next 2 weeks

i guess i am gonna do the revamp shit i always do

when i am bored and have nth better to do

the thing is

from weeks of saturday fever

this saturday is full of boredom

i dun have a single shit

my dear boy is being very cheeky lately

but he's starting to hear it when i am angry

and lets me carry him now and then

he also found his next favourite spot: i call lvl 2

i guess everything can be lost but not yourself

since everyone is moving towards their goals

and not managing to keep everyone intact

i dunwan to start having to chase around again

so, be around if u'll be around

i'm always around, somehow

♥

Tuesday

life is just about making plans

editing them

skipping them

deleting them

or completing them

u make so many plans

how many percent did u manage to fufill?

♥

Sunday

right

when i was polite, you now say i wasn't

there's a fine line from politeness and losing all your pride and diginity

yes, i am rude

tell me why again

because from young till now

everything that has been said from all of you were never nice things

and you expect me to be nice in words

come on.. give me a break

♥

pipi the first is back in action

seriously so happy

yes, happy and serious at the same time

everything is not gone

a miracle fix of 20 minutes

and a backup of the existance of me

a lot has happened

basically nothing extremely happy about

i really dun wan to care anymore

i will jump too.